Wells, happy belated april's fool ppl.

Suddenly thought of last yr's april's fool and realised, it was great. Unlike this year, cos I stupidly fell sick and giddy for the whole day. didnt complete my 4x400m interval runs and didnt go for trng. practically slept thruout all the lessons. came home and slept till plus. woke up, ate a lil' and used the comp. Slept at 11plus, feeling disheartened and perhaps, angry at someone's stubborness.

Didnt wanted to go to sch today, but with mum's nagging i did. My one and only lesson is like maths tutorial which is at 12pm. so i practically just revised math the whole time in sch. Didnt even grab a single bite cos I just felt like vomiting the whole day. So didnt eat anything for fear that I'lk puke them all out. Ponned contact time and now I'm at home, feeling restless and still wna vomit. I still have like 2more topics to cover for math lecture test tmr.

I feel guilty cos I havent been paying attention/listening for some lessons for the past onemonthplus due to some reasons. I think I suck la. JC life's too hectic for me. I knw I shld have been paying attention but my mind just cant help thinking abt other stuffs. It has been affecting my studies, wayyyyyy too much. But it's getting out of control. Plus Adiv season is just round the corner, I dont want myself to be affected by that particular thing but I knw I will be. and my grades will plunge, I'm sure for my June Common Test. And if I flunk my JCT, I'm gna be so damn bloody dead.

That thing just came at the very very wrong time. Pissed at myself, pissed at that thing. DAMN.