hmmm. heh back to post after so many days. didnt have the time to come online to slack la. the most come online a while then offline. just listen to songs and start to mug mug mug =/

hahahha. hmmm. oh wells. 2subj papers down. 7more to go.. hmmm,. JIAYOU =DDD

hmmmm. went macs to mug today. hmmm. then came home about 8plus. hmm. used comp. mugging later again. hahahaha. alrights. i go listen to 'jing tian ni yao jia gei wo' =D hahahah. addicted. all SUPER SPAS JNR'S FAULT. hahaha =x

hmm. alrights. gtg. bye =D

im sorry. didnt mean to make you cry just now.
dui bu qi :((
woaini :D

hmmm. back to post. ahhh. tried to mug today. BUT AGAIN. NTH WENT INTO MY HEAD.. hmmm. try to mug again i think. i cant stay at home in the afternoon to mug, i will be wasting my time la! hais. forget it. okay. forget it. short post this shall be. bye =D

wan =DD

alright. 2nd post for today alrd. went macs at 5 to mug for ss? NTH WENT IN AT ALL. and i started writing elsewhere again. crying in macs alone, ain't i silly.
HAH. came home at 7plus.
ppl might just think im a lunatic crying all the way home

i don knw what the hell im doing. oh wells. im not concentrating while mugging. im just staring into blank space. listening to my mp3. kept staring at my phone. it rang, but everytime i was disappointed.
hahaha. im just a loser who cant even stop my thoughts from running wild la. yes the right word for me - LOSER.
now im back at home. using the comp. maybe i'll try to study again later uh. i have to concentrate. like i cant afford to fail my eoys ya.hmmm waiting for teng to call me.in fact, im waiting for your call too..but there's nth at all..
haha. alrights. think i shall go rest. BYE. hais.now i wonder, am i a burden to you afterall =((

it's a bad bad bad day for me. i really dont knw what the fuck is wrong with me. frustration, anguish, lost, upset..everything. i dont knw. PMS-ing? i dont knw. it's just a bad weird feeling. like something's happening. i dont knw. URGH.whatsoever.BYE.

mugged the whole day at macs alone. dined with mummy and came home. mummy just went out. and im talking to db online. just thought of the things.
am i very selfish to hold back? i didnt wan to.. it's really the memories that makes me feel reluctant to quit. it's not that im seeking for attention.in fact i don need any.. i cant tell anyone. cause they cant feel what i am feeling right at this moment. everyone's just happy with their lifes. im supposed to feel contented with everything. just except for this.. im just. i don knw..
argh. i cried agn. ahhaha. ain't i just a crybaby? ahahaha. but im crying over stuffs that is really saddening.AH WHATEVER.

no mood to blog anymore. gtg. bye .
100days le =D wan mwahs.

i nt chou dan clara..wo shi da hao ren szeying..haha..-.-help chou dan blog then she help me blog.. ((: -her emotion- wahaha..copy..=p -

2day chou dan nv go sch!! cox 2day mornin sick..a bit cough n fever until yao si liao..=p aftn went 2mac n study..ATE FRIES N COKE ONLY!!! then i went 2mac at 6+ 2meet chou dan..aft a while she pei me waited 8o..2'full' bus went off..then i took the 3rd bus..ahaha..she reached home then cal da hao ren = wo..=p

ate duno wad..nv tel me..but sure didnt eat full full 1..haha..k la..duno wad 2blog le..weird weird de..=x bye..

99days..
stil gt 1hr 26mins..=] woaini..henjiu..

hahhahaha. sch was okay la. came home after sch with teng. bath and went macs to study. then ehh. ya. nth went in my head anw. ya. then some idiot came and disturb. HAHAH. just kiddin. hmmm. ya studied but still nth went intomy head. so ya. equals to today nv study. hahhahaha. hmmm. shared nuggets with teng hahaha. then ya. hmm. oooh. stay there until 7 plus? then walked to the bus stop with that idiot. =P hmmm. waited for her bus FOR SO LONG. hahha. then IDIOT LA. BULLY ME THERE! hahaha. went home after she got onto the bus. lalala. eh no...hahha. saw my uncle, aunt and my little cousin. went to ntuc with them. then bought food back to share. hahaha. ate yellow watermelon =DD (hahaha.someone nv eat before =x) hmmm. now slacking. muggin hard tmr. clara.. jiayou bah!! C=

ilu dear =DD
hahah. must motivate me to study okay!
mwahs =D

ahhahahaha. hmmm. came home after sch. no lunch for me. eh no. i ATE. one slice of pineapple. hahhaa. hmmm. then went to macs to study with teng. then yarh. along came gilbert. hahahaha. mug ss today./ =DDDDD SOMEONE bullied me just now. keep throwing paper aeroplanes at me. nono. SOME PIG. hahahaha.teng and gilbert left. eh. cause they quarrel i think. then ivan also left to go play ball. cause i didnt want to go. hahaha. so left me and that BULLY. ya. lol. finish mugging ss then went off. went home larh. THAT PIG bully me again. AHEM. hahahah. came up and use comp. hahah. relax a while then off to mug again =D maybe mug science and amath. dont knw la. hahhaha. see my mood=P

hmmmm. im in a GOOD MOOD =DDDDD i dont knw why but just yarh. hahahahahahahahaha. im mad im mad im mad im mad im mad. maybe study until mad lo. stupid ivan curse me. SHIT HIM.. hahahahhaa. my wound on my knee is hurting lik hell =(( dont think its still bleeding la.. but yarh. PAIN AHHH. hahaha. didnt knw it bled so much in the morning after i fell. i thought no bleeding la. oh wells. don care lah. hahahhaa.

alrights. gtg. hmmm. go blog hopping. then i am off MUGGING =DDD

stupid bully.. hahaha.deardear WAN =DD

rotting at home. mugging chem. but hardly anything got in. kinda bothered by something la. hahhaa. until teng came and tried to motivate me to study hahah. she accompanied me the whole day. studying chem. talked a lot and ate a lot too. hahahaha. oh wells. glad to have her as a pal =DD

geee. she left at bout 8. so i continued to mug chem. hahaha. but seriously. nth gets into my brain la. my brain was half-dead today. cause. haiya.my mind is occupied. FULLY OCCUPIED. urgh.but still. i made some progress in my chem revision./ hahaha. gonna mug further more. and ooh. for amath and geog too. im determined to get my studies right =D

hahahaha. okay. i shall not go on further bout things. alrights. gtg. bye =D
i know i am putting on a brave front now. telling myself that everything will be fine. telling myself that you wont be thinking bout those things anymore. telling myself that you will trust me. trust my love for you. but am i wrong? knowing i cant meet you, i just want to hear your voice. hoping i will hear a happy voice. but ytd night and today, all i get is a bored and cant be bothered voice. or is it my imagination? i tried telling myself that you are probably just tired. but its just seems to me that.. i don knw. if my feeling really gonna fade that easily, then why should i be doing so much to protect our relationship? why should i always worry bout us and the things that might happen? it's kind of hurting to knw that you probably dont trust me that much. it pains me ):

yayy =DD internet at home. hahahahha . glad to have my internet back la =D

kind of ehh. worried. though i have not gotten back my progress report. but i roughly know my results la. as expected la. didnt really work very hard this term. as in. i TRIED TO la. but yarh. just too stressed up. then slackened. hahahahha. eoys is really really near.. really afraid. didnt revise much though. just started on a bit of each subjs. oh wells. i need motivation to keep me moving. hahahhaa.

seriously, lots of things changed. i didnt mean from the past years. but from the start of this year till now. hahahhaa. realised ive really changed. sometimes i find no common topic to talk about anymore. kind of quietened down for the past months. didnt really want to talk much. actually not i dont want to talk. just that i just dont knw what to say. afraid to say something wrong. thought a lot these few months. hahaha. so i thought if i don want to say something wrong. then might as well shut my mouth. so as time passes, topics gets lesser and lesser. so yepp. no more communication. hahahhaha. and i thought since i don want to talk so much. i might as well put more effort into my studies. get my chem and amath right. since im interested in these subjs. hhahaha. my mole concept, redox and eh. binomial theorem. hahahaha. okay. alrights enough about studies anw.

been thinking about one particular question for a long long time. didnt really dare to tell anyone. cause seriously, i don knw who i can really count on now. maybe i shld just stop relying on anyone. hahaha =D i miss the past, but i do hope for the future (: nvr will i give up on myself. =D

hahahhaa. alrights. lazy to post any further. hahha. next time perhaps. =D bye.

its tmr =DDD
wan (:

last day of holidays, so sad. ): how i wish holidays were longer and exams are coming, so stressed. oh wells, getting prepared for exams, having the exam mood now. alrights, gtg, anw its a happy day. ((: wan=D

back to post la.hmmm. damn tired now. now at my cousin's hse. staying over here. hahhaa. ooh. went century sq with peisze and chou zhu to get my phone back today. hahahhaa. i so miss my phone.hhahahaha. then shop around a while. then ya. came back to my ahma's hse lo. ate and then watched tv and now use comp. damn irritated la. don knw why it kept losing connection. very frustrating lehh!!!! ma de. forget it.

hmmm. damn tired. bought jx's present alr. hahahaha.. oh my i feel so tired.hahahaha. don knw whether tmr shld go and play ball or not la. didnt really study much can.. damn scared la. i don wanna flunk my eoy la. urgh.

okay la. i really very lazy to blog alr. boring hols la. sch's reopening. stress again! urgh. bye.

we wont be able to meet up so much anymore. sch's reopening, exams are near, everything. but still, you are always in my heart. im gonna miss you so much, dear. things just quietened down by a bit recently. i don wan something else to happen to us again. i knw we will be able to overcome obstacles hand in hand, but im really afraid that one day.. one day we will be too tired of every single thing and we will go separate ways. i knw we'll part one day but i just don wan it to come so soon. it's really uncomfortable to have that feeling inside me. the feeling that we're parting soon. i really hope it's just me, thinking too much. maybe because too many things happened, that's why i'm probably feeling insecure.. yes. im feeling insecure inside me.
whtevr it is, i still love you as much as before.. never ever did my feelings fade away. woaini (: