Cremation today.It pains me to see my grandma crying so badly at the wake. It really pains me to see how badly my mum and aunts cried. It pains me to see his coffin being sent inside. I can't bear to see him leave us. The thought that we wouldn't see him anymore just makes me feels worse. We didn't expect ourselves to cry so badly, crying out to him. I knw I shldn't be crying so much, cos I had to hug and comfort my mum, had to be there with my bro to support her, but my tears weren't listening to me. It was bad.

The funeral wake ended today, and that's the most we can do for him for the last time. And we were told that Tingtingjie saw him at the wake at abt 4 or 5 in the morning and immediately prayed to him with joss sticks then he left. Lots of things that we were told, just proves that he's arnd with us all along, and he can hear us, our cries, our laughters, everything. Rituals were done and I really hope he can rest in peace.And I hope and we all knw that he will be happy over at the other side, no longer be in suffering and watching over us. He was great, doted on us, and I'm sure we're all glad that we had him in our childhood, be it the scoldings or the lovely food or the things he has done for us. I'm sure all of us greatly appreciated them and rmbed it deep down in our hearts.

Ahgong, you'll forever be in our hearts, and kept safely and deeply in there.Definitely. and I'm sorry that I haven't been a very good granddaughter, but yes, I love you, that's for sure.