It's good to have made up my mind and decided on what I really wna do.

Kept asking myself 'what's the point of this and that?' Maybe sometimes, having some time to think alone is good. Even if i have to cry and be unglam, it's gd to have sorted out all my thoughts, which, on the other hand, made me feel more relaxed and relieved. And I don't have to suffer so much anymore. It's ok to be emo at times, but not always. that's why i needed some time alone to think. it's ok to think abt it at times, cos we are humans and have our brains to think.so definitely we will think and emo abt it (if you don't then you really ain't human). But I guess this just makes me stronger, also reminds me not to rely too much and not to make the same mistakes ever agn. I guess it just serves as a good reminder huh (:

It really feels good to have sorted out everything. Cos I've alr taken out the first step by deciding on what to do. Whether to carry out or not, it will depend on individual, but for me Yes, I'm stubborn. so once I've decided, I'll carry it out even if others think its wrong and i think its right. It's my decision afterall!

I seriously think that I've really gained and learnt alot from this whole process. Grown-up? Hard to say but I knw I have matured alot from all this suffering and pain brought to me, and I guess it's all worthwhile (:

Meeting Gays tmr before Friendly against Chatsworth International. Havent been seeing them in a long time. and finally I can make it! Pics up tmr. Shit I need to pack up for Intensive Trng Camp alr! Sunday is the camp. and I havent packed. I have totally no idea on what to bring. SHIT SHIT SHIT.

ok whtevr i need to pack. BYEBYE PPL (: