Well, some overdue pics and some rececnt ones (:

Played ball with Teng at 108. Forever this look one lor she. hahahah.

See what I meant? (: Nvm she's still my bestest I love her la (:

She always torture my piglet when she studies in my room. Sigh poor pig ):

Evidence of me studying sooo hard. Oh pls! ;p

She skived and slept and Idk what la. She became tired aft toturing my piglet. Hahaha.Ok, more like I think she developed a headache from studying.

'OMG SO HARD CAN.'

ERM SORRY PPL. haha.

See what I mean?! She 'tried' to kiap my 20inch piglet's nose.

HAHA OK... it's cute in its own ways (:

Snacking away!

OH NO, WHAT AM I DOING! THINK I WENT CRAZY FROM STUDYING.

AH YES, this pic. TEAM (:

:D

Oh that day we all went out. May chitchatting away on the phone!

She ignored me ):

ok yay! (:

Her fingers on my head -.-

Oh the recent gym + bball session + orchard shopping!

PRIS (:

Teng and pris.

They call this CLASSIC PHOTO. omg.

before workout!

AFTER! (:

Orchard! Teng me and huisan!

I swear its bcos I was in front, not bcos my head is big. REALLY LAAAA.

Oh then send May off, BUT pics taken were like with lisze and gera. HAHAHAH.

It was sad but still, we had to la.

Lisze :D

Gera!

Then we have the Gays Picnic @ ECP hahaha. Hilariously daydreaming away.

Laid down on our picnic mat and just stared at the sky and talked (:

Me, sia, wee, wong

OH AND WONG'S BEAUTIFUL COCONUTPALM TREE. EH YOU CAN CONSIDER PLANTING ONE IN OUR FUTURE BUNGALOW AH!

FOREVER SPASTIC.

ahaha wong kena ignored :D

Oh MY FAV RED RUBY (: during dinner @ international seafood restaurant. hahahahahahahaha (((((((:

Yea that's abt all! Blog tmr or smth la. heh.

ANW I LOVE THE GAYS.

Talked to Maymay for a while online. Still telling me to study hard and not let my mom down. Haha, nvm I love her for being so naggy! Tsk it's kind of disappointing when I realised that I won't get to see May whenever I want to. Not like I can ask her out to sing, to shop, or even just to talk as often as I want it anymore. Come back soon dearest!

So it's GAYS @EAST COAST DAY TODAY ((:
Sweet days are days when we just sit down and snack away while we talk and dream abt the future. And somehow, I really want that living-tgt-in-a-bungalow/apartment to come true. Heh. And all the fantasies we had abt our future, ok maybe with the exception of divorce/failed marriages/overseas marriages :D

picnic-ed, crapped, dreamt, fantasized, lied down and stared at the sky.
I want days like this forever.
Off to pp to continue slacking and talking. Dinner at Seafood International Restaurant (or whtevr you call it) @ east coast with Mom and Uncle. Billed up to 480bucks, ok 430bucks aft discount LOL. Yea, seafood, wine, dessert, etc.

Homed and yea. There's sch tmr and right now I have the i-dont-wna-go-sch mood. Oh oh trng's starting on thurs like finally yea. OH SHIT I HAVENT DONE CHEM HOL HW :/
I must study hard. I must mug.
But first, it's ZYJ time (:
SOOOOO CUTE I CANT STAND IT (:

AHHHHHHH. ok, blog agn.

Ok, met my dearest whacky today! :DDDDDD
Went Cathay. Omg I tell you all ok, I was bullied by that two guys at the Shilin shop la. Walao! For more information, you can go ask whacky cos she laughed like mad. Then we caught Get Smart (: Not bad! Quite hilarious heh.
And I think I feel so stupid can. It was a comedy, yet I got frightened firstly, by a gunshot, THEN BY THE STUPID PIG WHICH FLEW OUT OF THE HOLE. TMDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.
And the thing is, I jumped on my seat! OMG and stupid whacky kept laughing beside me. So malu that I kept laughing at my stupidity la :/

I feel so stupid leh, last time always watch horror movies then either I'll pull the sleeves or I'll hide my face on the shoulders or cover my eyes with hands or jacket. Cos if not I'll always get frightened by those horror stuff! Hahah then everytime I realised I got frightened by the wrong thing (not the horror one), then I'll laugh damn loudly and malu-ly . Today AGN, somemore it's not horror leh WAHPIANG. Come to think of it, I miss watching horror and then laugh at my own stupidity! HAHAHAH :p

Didnt take any photos. Hmmm, oh we bought P.Osh brownies. Gosh heavenly (:
Hahaha and I went back to Aljunied to look for Teng and then talk and stone downstairs then came up, watch tv and use comp and complained and complained non stop. hahaha (:

Currently addicted to:
1) Sorry - Buckcherry
2) Second Chance - Faber Drive
3) Told you so - Jesse Mccartney
4) Stay up - George Nozuka
5) Say it agn - Marie Digby
6) Tattoo - Jordin Sparks
7) Always be my baby - DAVID COOK
8) too serious too soon - Gareth Gates
9) I'd lie - Taylor swift
10) Who will I run to - Kiley Dean
11) Used to - Daughtry
12) you ni zhen hao - fan wei qi and yang cheng lin
13) di jiu ye - coco lee
14) ming tian wo bu hui yi ran ai ni - chen shi wei
15) she bu de - xuan zi

ohman I can't help it but get addicted to all these songs for quite some time alr. So nice.
Oh I've got a new addiction too. ZYJ (: DAMN CUTE IM MELTING AND FAINTING REAL SOON. HAHAH. Whacky say I fa hua chi ):
ZYJ ZYJ ZYJ ZYJ ZYJ ZYJ ZYJ ZYJ ZYJ ZYJ OMGGGGGGG :DDDD
makes me wna migrate to tw to stalk zyj! <3

JCTs ARE OVERRRRRRRRR. DONT NEED TO SURVIVE ON COFFEE EVERYDAY ALR

IM GLAD. WHY? COS:

1) I CAN FINALLY TAKE A BREAK AND REST REALLY WELL W/O STUDYING

2) I DO NOT HAVE TO SLP AT LIKE WHAT?! 2AM, 3AM, 4AM! AND WAKE UP AT 6AM. BLOODY HELL.

3) I CAN DO MORE CATCHING UP WITH BFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF(s) :D

4) I CAN FINALLY EXERCISE.

5) I DO NOT HAVE TO CONTINUE SUFFERING FROM FREQUENT SERIOUS HEADACHES AND GIDDY SPELLS. BLOODY HELL I ALMOST FAINTED AT HOME THAT DAY. EVEN THE DOC SAY I VERY JIALAT COS NOT EVEN ALVLS. THANKS MAN.

6) I CAN FINALLY HAVE MORE TIME FOR MYSELF.

7) I CAN FINALLY SORT OUT MY THOUGHTS, LIKE ZIBI AT COFFEEBEAN AND DO SOME THINKING SOME DAY. OK EITHER ZIBI OR GET PPL LIKE BFFFFFFFFF OR WHACKY OR WHOEVER CLOSE, TOO BAD MAY'S GG AWAY ):

8) I CAN FINALLY PLAY BALLLLLLLLL, LIKE MAD SERIOUSLY. IM ADDICTED I DNO WHY HAHAHA.

9) I CAN HAVE MORE ENTERTAINMENT TIME LIKE WATCH MOVIES, GO SING K, GO SHOPPING ESP NOW IT'S SALES EVERYWHERE PPL. MANGO HAVG SALES, ZARA HAVG SALES, IT'S EVERYWHERE OMG IT'S MAKING ME GRIN LIKE REAL WIDELY, AND YET IT'S MAKING A BIG HOLE IN MY POCKET. NVM I DON'T CARE.

10) I DON'T HAVE TO FEEL STRESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS UNTIL PROMOS EOYS DAMN.

Well, ytd was really fulfilling. Woke up, went for math exam to fail it TMD. Then went back to TKGS and met Wee to collect Olvl cert and SGC, not bad quite nice. And trip back to TK was great really. Met Teng and Priscilla, bused to tamp for gym 4km run and cycled 11km. Then they wna leave cos gg to play ball so didnt do much else. cooled down and met junyi and took 27 to sengkang since priscilla stayed there so we went SKCC to ball. Then rushed home and bath and met Teng, Huisan, Ruby then Priscilla and Junyi joined us later and went orchard to shop and get that Zara dress for my cousin. Went home abt 11plus.

Woke up early and reached airport at 7plus. Gave May the huge card and the zara dress. Send her off.. gg Perth for studies. Won't get to see her in the near future I guess. My K-ing kaki, my confidant. AHHH pls take care over there alright! Relatives were there too, and you see my mum, my aunts, my grandma, cousins crying. haha all the women. ok, and me. I teared a li'l bit and Maymay was crying. I miss her alr ): Please don't go there and gain weight ok! You have to fit into that Zara dress! AndI'm waiting to see your angmoh bf!

I'm feelin a li'l sad and I dno la. I miss Maymay alr. And that princess's whininggggggggg.

Being 17 hasn't been that gd so far, except for friends.

pls let me have a better time for the next half yr. I hate the feeling of losing someone you care and love for. I've been losing ppl one by one. Pls stop, please.Sorry I'm getting bloody emo, depressed now. Lost confidants one by one. Enough for me alr. I shld stop before it gets worse uh.

On a lighter note, I'm meeting Whacky soon (:

and GAYS tmr at Sentosa, shit man I think you all cant see me at night aft Sunday aftn.

Nvm, I sacrifice for them (:

And, Foursome pls.I miss my bfffffffffffff.

Damn, need to enjoy before I start fretting over PW and sch work soon.

Damn, both knees are hurting like mad I want to chop them off. Maybe I really shldnt further aggravate my condition uh.

Damn, muscles are aching like shit.

Damn damn damn.

I don't need your pity, neither do I need you to feel sorry for hurting me.

Cos it's time I learn to pick myself up, and be strong.

All I need is time, I'm sure I'm a fast learner.

My dearestest Maymay.

Ok, I was really bored and did stupid quizzes. TSK.


WOAH, it made me sound soooo... zzz.




Addictive content in my personality is 77%

Beware!!! people easily get addicted to me

HAHA OMG 77% TSKTSK. BEWARE PPL!! :p

ok,whatever I was just bored. I think I'm gna fail JCTs like shit, at the rate of studying I'm at now. But but but, it's ok! Promos is the one that really matters. heh. I feel so tired.

It's ok. Exams will be over real soon, and then i can relax so I shall chiong for the last few days. Jiayou. Aft exams, it'll be meet ups with friends, trng hard for next yr's Adiv, gym time, and then chionging for promos, then whtevr it is la. OH, Alvls. Aft A's we're free to play. Really. So why not just work hard for this 1 and half yrs more only! :D

2weeks ago, I said die, left 2weeks, must study. 1week ago, I said,die I wasted one week, must chiong. And now! it's Sunday. and tmr I'm gna take my GP aftn paper, Wed I'm gna take Geog in the morning and Econs in the aftn, and Thurs i'm gna take Chem and Fri Maths, Tsk. See what I mean Ive been lazing arnd! I havent complete any subjs at all.

Oh yea, I still wna say. Whacky's the best (: hahaha and that day she said she wna give me a hug and pinch my cheeks cos she thinks I'm like a kid aft I told her abt my nightmares stuffs! Ok, I shall give you a hug next time I see you ok (: But you can't pinch my cheeks, I'll kill you. Last time got ppl keep pinching my cheeks that's why I've got even fatter cheeks now RAHHH.

AND and and looking forward to meet ups with bf soon yay (((:

My cousin's words woke me up and I'm determined not to let her down, not to let my mum down and, not to let myself down. OK, IM SORRY BUT JCTS I DEFINITELY WILL, BUT NO, I WONT LET HISTORY REPEAT ITSELF. Trust me (:

I've been getting weird dreams recently. Be it sweet ones or nightmares, they are all damn weird ):

AND OMG, I can't believe I'm still as clumsy as ever. I tripped and fell and ALMOST bump my head agnst the wall. ALMOST. luckily it's small enough ^^

Studying whole day yet, I didnt manage to complete what I wanted to do. Stress is building up like crazyyyyyyyy, yet I still daydream at times. Tsktsk I am really gna pia for promos instead cos I got no time to pia for JCTs alr.LOL.

Stress, fear, STRESS, FEAR.
I bet I managed to hide it too well, so well that ppl think I'm still as happy-go-lucky as ever.
That's how I do it. Smile widely and laugh loudly and ppl think I'm fine. Gd acting skills I have ^^

I've been trying, I really have. It's just not working.

Met Jx and went over to Shawny's place and omgggggg dno how many terraces and semi-ds they occupy la! One for sale somemore. Imagine almost the whole street is theirs. Ppl present: Jx, Me, Sy, Ks, Siokyi, Cindy, Jingzhi, Peiwen, Shawny(duh) and coach!Steamboat for dinner then mahjong-ed! Ks was being like my mother during dinner, keep asing why I nv eat and keep asking me to eat.Then outside to play badminton. Ks mama, Jingzhi and I make a good team against Siokyi and Cindy. XUN KA!

Haha, was hilarious that we can't stop laughing until our stomach hurts. Then rested and went to shoot some balls at the other side with Sy and Peiwen. Mum insisted that I shldnt stay and impose on others so asked my bro to come fetch me. I bet is bcos she don't dare to slp alone that's why insist that I come home lor. Tsk. My bro fetched Cindy and Jingzhi back then homed.

I haven't been so happy recently, for all I felt was fear. I was touching and thinking abt it during steamboat but being with them and having fun made me forgot abt it halfway thru steamboat. We shall have another T-net gathering soon aye! This time with whacky, xj and steph! (:

But now that I'm back home, the fear is overwhelming agn. Damn.

T-net gathering later, but wont be gg so early. need to study lah, tsk.

3blogs to update.
This public blog, one LJ, and one.. dearest precious private blog.
so don't blame me if i dont update everyday for this.

and... I feel it.

Take my fear away pls.
I can't take it anymore..

Today.. Met up with Whacky and went to SBC to watch game. Then had lunch, and went back to watch game. Then to Mac to study.. then homed. supposed to go for may's farewell but somehow cancelled. then went to have dinner with mum, bro and uncle and may and her family at The Wine Company opp CCAB beside the prata shop. Cool! Hahaha.

Took pics and came home. And found smth.. and it's making me real scared now. I hope its not.. I really hope its not. I dno what will I do if it is..
I'll be strong, I will.
I'm really scared.

I'm gna post pics from ytd's TK team dinner/gathering. hahah the rest next post ok! Hohoho.

JX :D

Jx, Sam and I :D


Me, Jx, Sam and Weijia at orchard mrt.

Wee and I :D

UHM?!

HAHAHA. COACH AND WEE.

OOPS.



SHURUI HOHO.

Grace and Sinyi

Team 2146 and coach!

us and jnrs!

^^

:DD

Melody and I ^^

Coach (:

Me, Coach and JX :D

Pervertic leh.

Melissa (jnr) and I(:

On the way home!







Yay! I love them all :D and Finally, ALL PRESENT FOR ONCE ((: all 7 and coach :D
2146 is love.

Sigh, Im super injury prone this week. Hahaha. I injured my fingers today. like 3rd and 4th wth! Ive injured my nose, my arm, my knee, my back, my fingers! Now what else you tell me. Stupid, and i got headache i dno why. AHHHH.
Oh and and, I cut my hair ^^
Whoever say got no diff I'll whack that person, its so much shorter now. like almost 3inch shorter! Hahaha I wanted shorter but ahmay said like that better and she thinks I look prettier with long hair. Oh wells. Hahaha.

Study study I'm soooo deaddddd. I'm giving up on chem man. like seriously.

ahhhhhh I'm like an emo shitxzxzxz now.
I'm really tired.. tired of crying myself to slp.