time flies.
MIDYRS are over. felt relaxed.but i was sad cos i screwed up my math paper2.
things weren't gd this morning. and i dont knw what went wrong.felt weird and out of place.
was it bcos we all didnt really have a gd talk for a long time? or is it bcos i was asked there for some humility? i dont knw. i seriously hope it isnt the latter. but im not surprised if i was there as the joke of the day or whatsoever (since it had been like that for quite some time in the past and im probably used to it)

hahaha it wasnt anger. i admit that i was rather pissed off to be asked there and felt out of place. i mean its partially my fault, cos i didnt make the effort to start a conversation or so(plus i didnt knw what to say).
it was SADNESS rather.recalled the past and felt that we were much happier then. bits and pieces. i really missed those times. how i wish we can be bonded all once agn, just like in the past. can we? though i doubt so, since its hard to forget everything that happened, but how i wish everyone wld try. try to bring the team back tgt.

i dno how everyone feels. its probably wishful thinking on my part. but recalling the tough trngs we endured thru tgt, the games we fought hardly for, no matter lost or won, we still stood as one.comparing the past and present, the broken bonds and friendships amongst us are undeniably obvious.

to sinyi: i probably missed the times when we strived so hard to get into the team. RMB beat SAC no6?ha i dont knw whether you'll rmb, or whether you even get to read this. but still i wna say thanks for being such gd fren and the so-called counsellor in the past (: i really appreciated those times when we encouraged and helped one another. those letters and bball times ((:

to grace: same. i dno if you get to read this but still. you were the one who sort of helped me and sinyi get into the team. classmates since sec1 and you were really great. fooling arnd, joking arnd. the silent laughter of yours.though things aren't the same anymore, but still thanks for being such a great fren ((:

to weijia: haha same thing. i dno if you get to read this. but i do rmb the times when we went out tgt and started talking abt others. call that bitching? i dont think so. haha. and the breko meal at bugis for your bday present. and you and your stupid actions everytime, haha but it was really funny. now we're classmates but we probably dont talk as much as we did in the past. but still you were great ((:

to samantha: the crazy samantha. hahaa. but still, we really had great times in the past, talking abt others and so. hhaha.the self-claimed QUEEN SAM. and i used to call you SAI SAM instead. hahaha. we're not talking much recently. and hey, sorry for rejecting your invitation to sit with you all this morning yea? ahahaha. ((:

to jiaxin: awww i sorta missed the times when we chat on the phone and gossiped/bitched. there was a period of time when we often do that. and the times when we always go out tgt esp during cny to buy your new year clothes. hahah all the trips to topshop and esprit and stuffs. it was great. haha but realised we dont talk that much anymore though we do sometimes.wells, anw, thanks for being such a great friend and thankyou for trusting me and confiding in me then.((:

to weena: hello woman! hahaha sorta felt better when i told you everything then at bugis. hope you do too yea? haha and thanks for sort of trusting me too! hahaha.you knw how i feel abt things now and thanks for the long talks when we are out or when we're on the bus (: it was a great feeling that i could hardly find anymore. i just cldnt really find anyone to tell. woman! rmb our ikea date ok! faster plan. hahaha. and let's go buy things tgt alrights! loves mate (:

i dno hwo everyone feels abt it. probably bcos of MIDYRS, then everyone start mugging so we all hardly talk anymore? or probably bcos trng alr stopped, so we dont really come tgt,not even in the morning/recess anymore? or is there any other misunderstandings or whatsoever? i dno.but there are definitely many reasons and factors that contributed to the drift between all of us. so scattered and broken up.

one of my wishes this yr for my bday is that tk bball team will come tgt as one agn one day. don say trng, even just for chats and i believe everyone will be happy enough ((:

MANY MISSES TO THE TK BBALL TEAM )):